So we have been living an FLR for about 10 months. It’s been largely great but there have been some hiccups. For a couple of months (March, April?) my Queen wasn’t really assigning punishments etc. I was still living following the rules but it isn’t realistic for me to go months without adding to my punishment number. I mean, I’m good, but not that good! Finally on my birthday she told me to orgasm (written about in Here I Cum!!! Or Thar He Blows!!! ). She had originally told me I wouldn’t orgasm until mid January 2019 and when she told me this I was in disbelief. I was also disappointed. Weird though that may seem. I’d gone 485 days without an orgasm and psychologically was ready to do the last 200+ days to get where I was going. Now I was being told to cum. So I orgasmed. It was great though I did feel regret afterwards. The great adventure was over and I really didn’t want to start from scratch again. Since then I’ve actually cum two more times (also written about in https://wordpress.com/post/collaredmichaelcom.blog/2212 and also in Another Cream Pie–or Are You Hungry Dear?? ), and I was beginning to worry about how things were going.
So we sat down and talked–actually we went for a 5 km walk to talk. Yeah, I know… Communication–go figure! Turns out my beloved Queen was feeling like a nag and a bitch. She was feeling like a Mommy and she didn’t like it! So we talked things over and came to an understanding. I was to follow the rules all the time without exception. When she is in the mood to assign punishments and discipline, it will happen, but she needed worry about doing it all the time. So really it means I have to keep on my toes, as any mistake by me could mean punishment and we are now in possession of a scary paddle ( Baseball Anyone?? Or Did I Really Want This?? ). We have some other implements that are also unpleasant, but this paddle makes the others pale.
At the same time, my Queen likes to see and feel me cum. At times she likes to taste me. When I wasn’t orgasming, she felt further away from me. So while I was feeling closer to her, she was feeling more distant to me and that isn’t a good thing. So after some thought, she decided she’ll not let me go as long again without orgasm. She likes to watch me lick my cum off or out of her too! So while I don’t know how often, I do know I will be cumming far more frequently. Currently I’m at 20 days since orgasm. We will see if this becomes the norm! lol
Since our conversation, we’ve had many chances to play. My Queen has orgasmed and has denied me the same benefit. I’m loving it though I never know if she will take me all the way or not. In the same time frame, she has teased and edged me numerous times and again I never know what exactly will happen. This uncertainty helps to keep me horny and I admit to loving that state. Additionally without the pressure to watch me and discipline me constantly, I’m finding she is doing more of it. My punishment number is once again a moving dynamic and she has been much more involved with locking Angus up. So this is also a good thing. The passion for the FLR seems to have returned to her!
A picture from this morning–with my Queen in what has become one of my favourite shirts. We were snuggling and the view was spectacular–at least for me!! lol
One thing that came up in our conversation was the Mantra! It’s been months since she’s asked me to say it. I had stopped trying to say it as it was irritating her. However she suggested on her own that I would have to say it again. So I had better do some practicing–I’ve forgotten the exact wording–and the mantra has to be exact!! Otherwise I might end up earning punishment for making errors in my delivery of it. Frankly that would please me. Because saying the mantra was a good thing for me. Helps to keep me in a submissive mindset.